Lyrics and Music by Caleb Hawley

I’ve fallen away where have I gone

I’m in a place I don’t belong

Empty is all that I contain

Built upon this stack of shame

I don’t know what went wrong

I just want to be loved

Just one night would make it right

One last chance to win this fight

And bring us back to where we began

Back when all we had were plans

And I could tell you loved me

And it was clear we’d be forever one

Before things changed, before we began to fade

Out of touch out of sight

Out of that poor child’s life we brought into this world

I guess I’m out of here for good

(Chorus)

I’m Fading, I’m fading away

And before the realization hits me let me say that I’m OK

I’m fine, cause I’m free

Ah that’s just reverse psychology

To make me feel like I’m alive I have to tell myself these lies

New beginning – a new start

Got a job at the walmart

To help pay the child support so nobody accuses me again

I’m fading away

Lyrics and Music by Bruce Hornsby

Verse 1

Standing in line marking time–

Waiting for the welfare dime

‘Cause they can’t buy a job

The man in the silk suit hurries by

As he catches the poor old ladies’ eyes

Just for fun he says “Get a job”

Chorus

That’s just the way it is

Some things will never change

That’s just the way it is

But don’t you believe them

They say hey little boy you can’t go

Where the others go

‘Cause you don’t look like they do

Said hey old man how can you stand To think that way

Did you really think about it

Before you made the rules

He said, Son

Chorus

(Solo)

Well they passed a law in ‘64

To give those who ain’t got a little more

But it only goes so far

Because the law won’t change another’s mind

When all it sees at the hiring time

Is the line on the color bar

That’s just the way it is

Some things will never change

That’s just the way it is

But don’t you believe them

Lyrics and Music by Caleb Hawley

Little Girl, I admit I get jealous

Why’s the dog gotta sleep here between us

When I get home so late at night

It’s him in your arms so tight

And he gives me a growl as if to say

Don’t you dare take me away

So how’s he supposed to be a man’s best friend

When he’s got me sleeping on the couch again

And when we’re trying to make love

He walks in and ruins the fun

You say he don’t get it, but I think he do

Just watch his tail wag when he’s looking at you

Trombone/scat solo

Turn your back, and he’s stealing off of your plate

When I do that you call me fat and tell me I best be losing weight

When he smells, you call it cute

He makes a mess and it’s I love you

Listen girl, I wanna be your doggie too.

Lyrics and Music by Caleb Hawley

So.  What about now?

Is this just how things gonna be?

We were so young and so free

But made the choice to be one

Chorus

But I can see a rainbow up ahead

I can see blue skies round the bend

I can hear good news everywhere

Cause we got a longtime love to share

There will be tough situations

Cause everything precipitation

But a rainbow shines through

Since you said I do

Girl, Ain’t it ashame

How people look for love all of their lives  (make this smooth, straight rhythms)

But I’m so glad that I don’t have to

Cause I got you here tonight

Chorus

And I’m still not quite sure how we ended up together

When everyone told you there was someone out there better

But I guess I shouldn’t worry

Cause you’re right here with me

And I ain’t goin’ nowhere

Cause that’s the way it should be

Chorus

Lyrics and Music by Caleb Hawley

Didn’t talk much through this

Can’t Say that I knew it

Gonna have to get used it

Stuck here in this mess

Now where’d that flame go

The one I used to know

Did it grow out of control

And burn you to the ground

Chorus

Now we know a lot about each other   -   double lower voice

But we don’t know nothin’ about fallin’ in love

When we say I ain’t talking to you

til you fix what you’ve done, now what you gonna do?

Now we lookin for some reasons

Trying to figure out what it was that we needed

Why don’t we just talk it through in the morning time

Do do do do

Now you’re looking for me

But you better get yourself some help

Cause how you supposed find me

When you’re still searchin’ for yourself

Chorus

Bridge:

How do we love? (3Xs)

And Why do we love?

Chorus

Lyrics and Music by Caleb Hawley

See that man at the end of the street

He needs a little money and a bite to eat

But look at me I’ve got college loans

And I just passed my limit on my cell phone

He needs a place to stay he needs a place to lay

He needs not to be alone at the end of the day

Yeah, He needs love

So I dug down deep into my jeans until I realized

All I had was a twenty

And  just too much money  eh oooohhh

Too much to risk the guy probably’d get up and just use it for a fix

(Chorus)

So I found myself in the middle of the street

Step by step just marchin’ to the beat

Not thinkin’ bout no one, not bout anybody

Just stepping in the shoes of my own two feet

And they’re tied so tight

And they’re running my life

Cause they’ve convinced me I’m the only one

People approaching me without hesitation

Asking me for some kind of donation

Give me a break, money don’t grow on trees

I’ve got kids to feed, I’ve got a wife to please

Chorus

Bridge

I’m the one that matters I’m the one that counts

I’m still gaining ground I’m still gaining ground

Yeah I am getting more and I ain’t slowin’ down

All for me

And they’re tied so tight

And they’ve ruined my life

‘Cause they convinced me that I was the only one

Chorus

Outro

Lyrics and Music by Caleb Hawley

Chorus

I need a real vacation.  Ima turn my telephone off

Talking ‘bout a real vacation,  and two weeks ain’t enough

I need a real vacation, Don’t think about what’s to come

Concentrate on no concentration, talkin’ bout a real vacation

Always waiting for the weekend. To get the groceries for the week

And fix the hole in the ceiling.  The lady says that there’s a leak

And when I wake on Saturday Morning. Can’t help but think about Sunday night

And how I’ll dread to go to sleep.  To face the daylight

Chorus

I took a week off of work. Just so I could paint my house

Took a break from the painting. To clean my car out

Halfway through the cleaning.  I had to run to the bank

To cash my paycheck.  So I could buy some more paint

Chorus

Bridge

Oh We do it all the time

We face our lives

With inensity that defines us

Time to put that behind

Chorus (Tagged 3 times)

Lyrics and Music by Caleb Hawley

It’s good to be me, It’s good to be you

Cause we both got somethin’ That we both gonna do

It’s good to be rich, And It’s alright to be poor

Cause at the end of the day You’re still wanting more

Cause you can see it either way In every shade of gray

It’s Good to be them Yeah, It’s good to be us

No one’s better We’re all just dust

It’s good to be high It’s alright to be low

Cause at the end of the day We still got room to grow

You can see it either way In every shade of gray

(Bridge)

Now you’re talking about givin’ it up

And you’re saying that you’re all washed up

And you’re wishin’ you were anybody other than yourself

Well Brother I’ve got some news

To take away some of those blues

Someone out there wants to be you too

Cause it’s good to be you It’s good to be me

It’s good to be that person We’re all wishing we could be

It’s good to live by faith Or to live by proof

Cause at the end of the day Your still searching for truth

Cause you can see it either way, In Every Shade of Gray

Lyrics and Music by Caleb Hawley

I Thought I knew you

But what you said was not the truth

Buy hey, I don’t think you knew yourself too well

But man, when you do come on back – and I’ll be

Waiting here for you 2Xs

And if I have to

I’ll wait until the final hour is through

Funny how we get hurt when we’re lied to

But I believe that’s a fault in our pride too

Silly Shallow beings

Can’t forget our angry memories

And I’ll be

Waiting here for you 3Xs

And if I have to

I’ll wait until the final hour is through

(Ending)

I won’t give up on you yet.

And I won’t until it’s over

So can you try even harder

Time is passing getting older

But I won’t give up on you yet.

And I won’t until it’s over

So will you please get better

I don’t want to wait any longer but I’ll

Wait, Wait until the final hour is through

Lyrics and Music by Caleb Hawley

Years ago – The early thirties there was trouble

A whole nation of discouraged people

‘Til FDR made a deal

And we moved along

Today – Still seeing worry on the peoples face

The banks took all confidence out of this place

And there’s no money to be made

But we’ll find a way,

Everything’s gonna be ok – It always is

Chorus

Cause Ever since the world began

When the people go down, they get right back up again

I know that it’s hard to imagine

But it’s gonna happen – and I’ll see on the other side of the all

There is a town – In Germany that had to build a wall

Couldn’t get along so they just divided it all

But then they tore it down

And they moved along

But still – Across the map there’s all this tension built

Whole world living by division will

But I like to think it’ll change

You know we’ve seen it happen before

So I wouldn’t close your mind yet

Chorus

Bridge

I know it can see like forever

But in the span of it all you know it really ain’t to long

Cause we’ve been from slavery to freedom

Enemies to now we need them

In arguing found reason of it all

Ignorant to acceptant, out of touch to connected

Blown up to erected, underdog to elected

Followers to leaders, illiterate to readers

Skeptics to believers, we’ve come millions of meters

So how is everyone still talking how the worlds going down?

Chorus 2Xs

Lyrics and Music by Caleb Hawley

(Verse 1)

Lately they’ve been telling me

That there’s fortune in my destiny

Funny I don’t see the same thing

Sitting here staring at a computer screen

And I try so hard to believe

But my patience gets the better part of me

Chorus

I’m so sick of the small steps

And it’s getting’ late for a leap of faith

Lay it out on the table

Aint’ no need to negotiate

If it’s all or nothing, I’d rather know right now

And If it’s time to take the top

Someone show me how

(Verse 2)

Getting tired of sleeping in my car

Think I’m ready for my 5 star

Sick of playing all these smoky bars

Where all they want is Clapton guitar

You know I love to hear them all sing along

But why Can’t it be to one of my own songs?  heeeyyyy

Chorus

Scat Solo (Verse 3)

You know stalling ain’t exactly what I planned

But success is not exactly where I stand

Chorus

I was flippin’ through magazines when I noticed a horrible scam

Everybody had perfectly plucked eyebrows and a perfect tan

Then I looked in the mirror and shuddered at what look back at me

It was a horrid face that was screwed for fame ‘cause it was too ugly.

Chorus

I’m screwed for fame ‘cause I’m ugly

Just meant to be that I make no money

Never gonna have airplay ‘cause I forgot to pick up good looks

Don’t matter if I write good songs from me fame was took.

Well I ain’t got a perfect nose and I ain’t got perfect hair

But I’ll play my guitar with a sense of freedom everywhere

No one will say, “Just a little more blush on his cheeks”

Because they’ll like what I play and then good music might they seek.

Out on the street, no bread or meat

No shoes on my feet thanks to MTV

Went to get a record deal, they said my looks did not appeal

That’s when I learned that music from the media was not real.

Well I may not wear a Speedo, and have people enjoy me for my looks

They’ll enjoy me for my music, that way when I’m eighty, they’ll still be hooked

No one will say, “Let’s buy him another chin,”

‘Cause what’s been given to me is a blessing and on fake body parts no money will I spend.

Chorus

Since I was born my sight has been blank

Well my mother, she has forgotten me

And my father, he never came

I have begged and I’ve begged for some thirty odd years

And I’ve searched and I’ve searched for many more

But still nobody’s came to me

And inside much pain and strife I store

But then one day I heard of this man

Who healed the lame, and I called out his name, And he came

And he gave me his hand

Chorus

When he reached upon my eyes I could not see a thing

But when he let out a cry I knew I’d been redeemed.

Well some people tried to explain what seeing is like

But came so shallow they did

Now I see many colors,

It’s more beautiful than I could have ever thought

Well this has been a miracle

Thanks to this man who came and sought

And since he’s always near,

Whom shall I fear?

Chorus

Well he took some mud, put it upon his eyes

Wiped it with his hands, and now I’m seeing like every man

Chorus

I’m so stinkin’ humble that’s why everybody loves me

Man I’m great

Judgmental: that is he and she and him so deep into their sin

But not I

Egotistic: never me

Even though I’m the best I pretend to be less

I’m unreal.

The animals train the humans

Here at the circus of fools

And nobody laughs at the clowns

Cause the clowns just ain’t the ones that are

Chorus

Stupid and dumb well that’s what we are

Here at the greatest show on earth

Ladies and gents, children of all ages

Unleash your egos from their cages.

I never brag, nor boast, Though I always do the most

Plus one

I can’t stand it when people whine

I don’t get it, why don’t they quit it; they know they really are fine

They’re so annoying- I never whine

All right, I do admit that I once told a lie.

Oh wait, maybe I didn’t, or I did, did I?

No I didn’t. I never lie. My nose ain’t growing. I tell the truth.

The bungee always breaks

Here at the circus of fakes

And we always fall from our trapeze

‘Cause your partner always wants to make you look so

Chorus

Open minded: that is me

No I could never even see why anybody wouldn’t be open minded

And I’m a peaceful man, no matter who the punk

If someone else tries to tell me different I’ll kick ‘em square in the junk

Because they’re lying! I’m peaceful!

And I’m full of love, yes I am

That’s why I hate those bigots from the Ku Klux Klan

Because they hate- and I hate haters- because I love

When you’re walking the tightrope of contradiction

Here at the circus of fools

You slip and you fall and you hit the ground

Then you’re dead